Desire for constructive criticism, perfectionism, periodic lack of activity (with included depression!), creativity limited by inspiration and motivation...
You sound like... me. A lot like me actually. You're even a Touhou fan too what the heck.
Glad to hear you're feeling more optimistic right now. That means it's also a good time to get yourself deeply and heavily invested into either what you're doing now (performance), or something less familiar (arrangement, composition), because you seem to be more in the mood. You've certainly come to the right place for it too. We're all music nerds here (in varying fields), willing to pitch in if you have any questions.
I myself am somewhat helpful for composition and arrangement abilities. I'm also a very honest critic, if need be (I'm super busy right now though rip). Those things being said, I did quite like that composition you posted. You seem to have a good grasp of composing, particularly concerning atmosphere. It feels a lot like a Touhou "Ending" (not "Staff Roll") theme to me, and it follows that feeling really well, though you never specified what it was supposed to be anyway. If you feel like getting back into composing, I'd enjoy taking a listen to what you have to make.
Despite the similar experiences, I really can't add much else right now. Just keep doing improving and stay motivated.
You sound like... me. A lot like me actually. You're even a Touhou fan too what the heck.
Glad to hear you're feeling more optimistic right now. That means it's also a good time to get yourself deeply and heavily invested into either what you're doing now (performance), or something less familiar (arrangement, composition), because you seem to be more in the mood. You've certainly come to the right place for it too. We're all music nerds here (in varying fields), willing to pitch in if you have any questions.
I myself am somewhat helpful for composition and arrangement abilities. I'm also a very honest critic, if need be (I'm super busy right now though rip). Those things being said, I did quite like that composition you posted. You seem to have a good grasp of composing, particularly concerning atmosphere. It feels a lot like a Touhou "Ending" (not "Staff Roll") theme to me, and it follows that feeling really well, though you never specified what it was supposed to be anyway. If you feel like getting back into composing, I'd enjoy taking a listen to what you have to make.
Despite the similar experiences, I really can't add much else right now. Just keep doing improving and stay motivated.