No, I'm not going to die, don't worry.... Hah, as if it would matter anyway, only I would notice myself fall into hell o_o
Anyways... If anyone can offer help, support, whatever, then please do... I'm in desperate need of hope.
Let's start at square one: Ever since I can remember, I've been an outcast. A complete. Social. Outcast. I've lived without really knowing what love feels like. I feel like Axel from KH. It's just like I don't have a heart... Well, obviously I possess the one pulsing blood and adrenaline through my veins at this very moment, buuut.... Well, anyways, wherever I go, I'm just not accepted. I fuck up. A lot. And I'm not even trying to... I try everything to make myself bearable, but even -I- can't stand me. I've been on the brink of death, only once, but, I was honestly wishing I would just die. I mean, all I wanted this year was to finally have drank myself or smoked myself to death. I just want to be able to do things right. Even 100 mg of a heavy anesthetic aren't allowing me to sleep... I'm a grown damn man, and I find myself in tears so much from the loneliness, the lack of being accepted, the social indifference, the sadness of not being able to love... Yet at the same time, that sadness feels like a void... Like I'm not even feeling anything, yet I am... Even the constant anxiety is exactly the same..... It's surreal and difficult to explain... But now all I ever look foreword to is a light up or a good few shots of whiskey... And it tastes like shit :/ Now, I'm not attention seeking here, but all I'm asking for.... is help... advice.... I have no one else to go to at the moment... Please, somebody...
:( -Jay'
Dude, enjoy what you have. I doubt things are that bad and you don't have anyone to talk to. It's Christmas for God's sakes, don't try to depress people.
And besides, at least you got your health. I'm over here fighting cancer with a risk of me dying for real. I really don't want to hear BS like that from a guy who doesn't even know how bad things could be.
If things are really like that, go show that post to your family.
Quote from: FSM-Reapr on December 25, 2012, 03:39:40 AMIf things are really like that, go show that post to your family.
This. I'm really sorry to hear that Pride. I'll pray for you. Have you by chance tried to read the bible? It's one of the most uplifting things you can do with yourself. I'd understand if you didn't, but it's too effective for me not to say it.
I've felt like this before. Don't worry, PrideSage, you'll be fine. Just try to get through it. Talk to your family, and read the Bible. I'll be praying for you.
Why hasn't anyone told him to see a doctor yet? -.- If it's really depression, there's not much else that would help.
Also, simply getting out a bit usually helps a lot. Find some place to hang. A crowd to join, with the same interests as you. Just see people, they usually never bite are more friendly to strangers than you'd think. As long as you're not directly repulsive (as in, you haven't showered for weeks or keep screaming obscenities to everybody), most people are actually rather nice guys. Just giving out random compliments will bring out many a smile, and may change your day/life totally. If you're studying, check out the various interest groups around school. I'm not telling you to go join anything, just spend an afternoon or two checking out what's going on. Perhaps you'll find a bunch of like-minded people behind a door you pass by daily. If you're working, chat a little with co-workers or even customers. Again, compliments may be a starting point for a conversation (and if not, well, they will mistake it for good customer service and leave the place with a better opinion in it).
As many have said above, religious groups may be a good place to start if you have not other idea. They're usually friendly, welcome to new faces, and loving to help if you've got any problems (just watch out for the Scientologists, they'll take your money and leave it at that). Just being part of a community will usually help immensely.
Best of luck!
Thank you, posters after the first. It means a lot. And.. I am christian, but see, I don't drive. A car on my living is like asking a homeless man to buy india o_o But see what I mean about people attacking me? I can't do -anything- without someone jumping on my back..... But anyway, can someone fill me in on some of this on the religious side? I've never been to church above the age of 8 (Several years ago, might I add) and I remember NOTHING about it owo
I heard religion is a wonderful path to enlightenment, but I know hardly anything about the good lord...
-My regards, and I wish you all had a merry Christmas
Edit: My family wouldn't care, honestly, if I showed them the post.
Quote from: PrideSage99 on December 25, 2012, 09:17:21 PMEdit: My family wouldn't care, honestly, if I showed them the post.
I think that might be your main problem. You ask advice from strangers rather than your own family, which doesn't make sense imo. Family should be the #1 choice to talk to. What I think is that you're afraid of talking to your family about this, that supports my theory of you adding the word "pride" in your nick. Besides, you can't know do they care if you haven't tried. ;)
But no offense, but I think you're an attention seeker who's in the need of sympathy when you know everything has gone wrong during the time you have been here. That might the reason why you don't want to show that post to your family.
Conclusion: I am so going to study psychology in high school
This (http://www.amazon.com/One-Heartbeat-Away-Journey-Eternity/dp/0964366576/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1356543010&sr=8-1&keywords=one+heartbeat+away) is one of the best books I've ever read. It doesn't force any religion down your throat, but takes a step back and looks at everything logically. And I mean logically. He does a great job with it. If you have the spare funds, (and it's going for $1.20 lol) I would STRONGLY recommend this.
^The reviews suggest otherwise -.-
I'd recommend this (http://www.amazon.com/All-Quiet-Western-Front-Novel/dp/0449911497). I think everyone should read it and stop glorifying war which would solve a lot of problems these days.
Quote from: Ruto on December 26, 2012, 10:36:33 AM^The reviews suggest otherwise -.-
What? That it's a bad book? I see all positive reviews....
Click on the 1 star ones. I always check to see what people have to complain about before I buy anything.
Ouch. Didn't see that. Hmm... I enjoyed it and found it appropriate. Every single other person I know who's read it agrees.
Whenever I have looked at religion *actually* logically it only reinforces my belief that it is an outdated and primitive construct so
Elaborate?
Quote from: TheZeldaPianist275 on December 25, 2012, 07:54:11 AMHave you by chance tried to read the bible? It's one of the most uplifting things you can do with yourself. I'd understand if you didn't, but it's too effective for me not to say it.
Screw Christianity.
Join the FSM! The most delicious religion on the planet that has shaped like a meatball! (http://www.venganza.org)
FSM is simply the one and only religion for sages that have pride! Join now, and you won't regret it!
- FSM-Reapr, a loyal Pastafarian
.....
Relax guys. I am on a jokey mood.
I've noticed. XDDDDDD For someone who just got out of the hospital with cancer you're pretty bubbly Mr. FSM.
lol bubbly
Quote from: Bubbles7689 on December 26, 2012, 02:37:15 PMlol bubbly
I'll always be bubbly if you'll let me be that way. ;)
You guys are so creepy.
I'll creep on you any time, if that's what you want. ;)
Quote from: TheZeldaPianist275 on December 26, 2012, 03:21:35 PMYou guys are so creepy.
I still think "All Quiet on the Western Front" is one of the best books ever.
I'll think of you every time I go to sleep. ;)
omg fsm make love to me.
Wait what.
This thread has gotten pretty awesome. There's no way PrideSage won't be cheered out of his depressive state after reading through this.
Also, if you're depressed DO NOT READ THE BIBLE. Olimar and ZeldaPianist obviously haven't read it, because it isn't a cheery book, at all. Read some Avatar comics or watch a Louis CK stand-up special or something that will actually make you smile. The Bible is long, pretty boring, and fairly depressing and/or gruesome at many points. Not a good anti-depressant.
BUT the best thing you can do is visit a doctor, like Ruto said. LUCKILY, I know a few good ones:
(https://www.ninsheetmusic.org/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fcdn.theatlantic.com%2Fstatic%2Fnewsroom%2Fimg%2Fmag%2F2010%2F11%2Fdr-who%2Fmag-article-large.jpg%3Fm8tldj&hash=0bbee7c0a3d11fd7f00dd500b83e015c07f3b1e5)
Eleven, to be precise.
oh my god
yes
sfk
I love you
I recommend this book. It's perfect. ;) (http://www.amazon.com/Fifty-Shades-Grey-Book-Trilogy/dp/0345803485)
The Divine Comedy always puts me in a good mood. 1984 too, plus Shakespeare, Poe; really they are all quite uplifting, happy works/writers.
Quote from: SuperFireKirby on December 26, 2012, 08:54:33 PMSomething about Olimar
Lol, I haven't even posted here yet! But I do agree, the bible isn't a very good antidepressant. I'm definitely not saying you
shouldn't read it, just that without the correct mindset it could have little to no effect. :/
Quote from: SuperFireKirby on December 26, 2012, 08:54:33 PMAlso, if you're depressed DO NOT READ THE BIBLE.
Eh. Just because a book is dark doesn't mean it's not uplifting. I agree, if you're just in a bad mood, there are better things you could do (like watching Elf-tis the season). But if you actually have chronic depression, a funny movie's not gonna get you very far for long. Like Olimar said, the right mindset can mean everything.
I think he meant that Bible is booooooooooring and therefore it can't cheer anyone(normal) up
If you really want to read the bible, then do it in a movie or something.
lolwut?
You know, there are those of us out here who still read and who still look at it as an equally enjoyable alternative to movies and gaming....
Im saying that if the different style of writing and the sheer volume of the bible confuses you, then watch a movie instead because some people learn visually
Quote from: Bubbles7689 on December 27, 2012, 08:30:48 AMIf you really want to read the bible, then do it into a movie or something.
Fixed.
Quote from: TheZeldaPianist275 on December 27, 2012, 08:32:35 AMYou know, there are those of us out here who still read and who still look at it as an equally enjoyable alternative to movies and gaming....
No offense, but I think you were raised in a strict family, am I correct?
That's true. But most books were intended to be...read. Especially sacred texts, which don't read like a novel and have screwy film adaptations. I'm not saying they're all bad. But they can never be as good as the original.
Eh..... define strict.
Very religious family, food prays and Sunday churches.
Yes. Food prayers not really required. Church on Sundays? Definitely. Keeps us focused.
My old testament teacher shows us the movies :P Theyre not like sacreligious or anything, actually theyre specifically designed for a different audience that cannot read the book for whatever reason. Its almost word for word
Quote from: Bubbles7689 on December 27, 2012, 08:40:48 AMMy old testament teacher shows us the movies :P Theyre not like sacreligious or anything, actually theyre specifically designed for a different audience that cannot read the book for whatever reason. Its almost word for word
Those would be some of the better ones methinks. :) Yes, that would make sense.....
OMG A SERIES OF MOVIES ABOUT THE BIBLE WOULD BE SO GREAT. STARRING SAMUEL L. JACKSON AS JESUS, OF COURSE.
"BE A MUTHA FUCKIN' FRUIT BEARING TREE, MUTHA FUCKA! OR BURN THE MUTHA FUCKIN' TREE TO THE MUTHA FUCKIN' GROUND.....MUTHA FUCKA!"
That would be great.
I think I've shared this before xD
Yeah, life back then definitely wasn't pretty^^ Pillage, mutton and whatever.
You do realize that if this guy is clinically depressed nothing that was suggested here will help him, right? He'd need to seek out a doctor for some help.
On the other hand, if this guy is being a bit whiny, find something you think is worth doing, preferrably not illegal. Find a hobby, or an additional hobby if you already have one. Read a book, watch a movie, just do something; sitting there sulking will not solve anything.
Quote from: MaestroUGC on December 27, 2012, 12:02:54 PMYou do realize that if this guy is clinically depressed nothing that was suggested here will help him, right? He'd need to seek out a doctor for some help.
On the other hand, if this guy is being a bit whiny, find something you think is worth doing, preferrably not illegal. Find a hobby, or an additional hobby if you already have one. Read a book, watch a movie, just do something; sitting there sulking will not solve anything.
Quote from: Ruto on December 25, 2012, 10:10:03 AMWhy hasn't anyone told him to see a doctor yet? -.- If it's really depression, there's not much else that would help.
Now let's get back to derailing this topic.